Wanderlust

(image is not mine)

I want adventure in the great wide somewhere.

I literally have those words tattooed on my body. All I've ever wanted growing up is a life of adventure. I grew up in a family that didn't have a lot of extra money for tropical destination trips, so we went camping.. a lot. I LOVE CAMPING, don't get me wrong the last trip I took was a camping trip.. TWO YEARS AGO. I  cannot believe it's been two years since I traveled, and almost six years since I went to Cuba. I crave adventure. I wish I could just travel for the next five years of my life.

Two of my good friends just left on a trip to backpack around Europe for a couple of months. I'm so insanely jealous, that's something I want to do so bad. I can't wait till I can do something like that in life. Hell I'd even be happy to just travel across Canada, I want to see the Rockey Mountains soo bad. I feel like if I could choose anywhere to live in Canada it would be in British Columbia so that everyday I could see the mountains. God it would be amazing to get up in the morning and have a coffee staring at that.

I know it's a bit early but I've started up a 2016 goals list on that list is to take a trip for my ten year anniversary with my boyfriend. That gives me till September to save up some money for an amazing trip for the two of us. With wanting to visit so many different places all over the world I have no idea where we should go.

Anywhere in Europe is huge on my list, especially the Netherlands as I have family who lives there. The two of us have climbing Mount Fuji on our bucket lists so I was also thinking about a trip to Japan, but that was the last place my boyfriend took a trip to. I'm thinking somewhere tropical, like Mexico or even Cuba again since Cuba's cheaper to get to than Mexico. I'm in love with waterfalls so I also think it would be awesome to go to somewhere that we can go see waterfalls. Really just drop me somewhere with BEAUTIFUL scenery and I'll be a happy camper.

Where in the world have you traveled? Where would you suggest to go?

WANDERLUST

I've been thinking about this post for a while now. My personal pursuit of happiness. If I'm going to be completely honest with you, I have no fucking idea what makes me happy. I don't know what my special talent in life is. At this point in my life I have no idea what Im doing with myself, and that is okay. I think. Okay I admit, I'm a little terrified. I have friends in college, friends graduating, friends who are traveling the world, friends buying houses and friends having babies and I'm sitting over her floundering about like a fish out of water.  How come they can have it so together I can't?

 

I'm 23 and I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. If I ever grow up. I better grow up. My life which was once full of activities basically revolves around two things. Work and home life. I only work part time and my job is really not that interesting. Part of the reason I don't do more is I really don't have the money to. Working part time while living on your own and paying off student debts leaves you broke the second you get paid. In the end I know it'll be worth it but it sure is discouraging to watch it happen.

Lately I have been reminding myself of how much life can change in a couple years. I think as young adults we have too much pressure put on us, from ourselves and others, to get our life together early. Go to college, get a job, get a house, get married, have kids, and so on. To me there was no room for mistake and when I failed myself at the college part, life just seemed to go down hill from there. I didn't come from a wealthy family and so college was paid for all on my own, you would of thought that would have made me take the experience more seriously. Well it didn't. When I fell behind in classes and knew I wouldn't be graduating anytime soon I moved home. I started working, started renting an apartment with my boyfriend and have been stuck in that stage ever since. Don't get my wrong living with my boyfriend is great, but I am ready for more.

 

The last few weeks I have been researching and have found something I think I can be good at. I've set out a plan for myself and am hoping to start that journey in January. I'm scared shitless that it's the wrong path again. I can't fail again. In my life I feel like it's time I had a career that I am passionate about, this is the first step to doing that. It's a step that allows me to keep my job and live at home as well in order to achieve it. This is something I can't fail at, I wont let myself.

 

I still find myself wanting more. I want a hobby, I want to be crazy passionate about something that I just can't get enough of. How do I find that? For me I think it's just luck. If you're lucky you'll either stumble into that one thing you truly are great at. The one thing in life that you honestly belong doing. Hopefully one day soon it'll be my lucky day and I'll stumble into my happiness. Until then I'll be trying as many new things as I can, and not giving up on happiness.

the pursuit of happiness

 (unrelated pretty pic from my trip last summer)

Holy crap.

It's felt like forever since I opened up my laptop and was able to type up a blog, let alone do anything else on my mac. For the last month I've been battling problems with the Yosmite upgrade. Any of you have any problems with it? My biggest most annoying problem was the dreaded pinwheel of death.

It just kept spinning.

Even right now as I attempt to open the app store it's spinning, constantly spinning. At least now the app store opens before I couldn't even get it to do that. It's been a long month of painstaking work trying to get this puppy back in motion. I have dealt with my log in screen taking more than an hour to open up onto my user profile. I've seen the pin wheel spin for an entire day, not putting my compute into sleep, just spinning. Word wouldn't open, photoshop wouldn't open, the app store wouldn't open and if I could get a page of the internet to open it took nearly fourty five minutes.


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I spoke to soon when I began to write this! but finally about a month and a half ago; after much stress and a ton of swearing, my mac finally works. There is nothing more annoying than doing an update from something you trust and it screws everything up.

So what was the problem?

Well I think when I preformed the original update my Mac missed part of the download, which slowed down my computers processing. I followed tons of peoples suggestion on how to fix the Yosemite update but nothing had worked. What ended up working for me was: One, I started up my Mac in safemode. It then finally my app store showed an update. Something I hadn't seen for nearly three months. When I clicked it the app store loaded and I was able to update to the newest version of Yosemite, which was something I hadn't been able to do in a long time. When my Mac started to update it did one update & then a second one, which is what made me think that part of the original download had been missing the first time.

Anyways now my baby is better. And there is soooo much relief that I wont have to go back to PC... just can't do it.

I can't wait to start blogging again!

months without my mac